Month: May 2012

  • Missing you in this room

    Written on May 29, 2012 at 23.33, Comanche, Oklahoma Here I am at Jessica’s houuse, in Bryson’s room, the room we used to sleep whenever we come for visit to Oklahoma. It’s quiet, very quiet and I feel lonely. No more you with me in this room, Baby. I will sleep alone tonight 🙁 I miss […]

  • Doha Lounge

    Sitting here at the lounge after shower and breakfast. Mixed up feeling fill my heart. This used to be our meeting point, Love. I cried by teh time I walked into Duty Free, as you usually greted me tjere with your big smile, with your red traveling shirt and your lounge pants. You were not […]

  • BBQ Night – American Club

    It’s sad here Baby, without you is so hard. I drink Jack Daniels like we used to do together here. My heart keep on singing Bon Jovi’s song; it’s hard so hard. It’s tearing up my heart. It’s letting you go… I love and miss you Baby

  • Batik

    Went to an exhibition Jakarta Convention Center with Indi and I found some batik with old patterns for my quilts. I am happy to get them, cheap batik just as I wanted. I did’t buy batik for my dress as you won’t be here to see me with you batk dress, baby. I was sad […]

  • Marbella

    Go with my sister, Indi to her apartment, Marbella Kemang and I feel sad remembering you, Baby. Last time I went to this apartment, you’re still alive and well. My heart hurt thinking about this, Love. I miss you so much, Love. Rest in Peace

  • Do You Remember

    I saw you in a dream I saw you in the wind You spoke to me, gentle words, soothing my mind caressing my heart Just the way you looked at me Your face the most beautiful I’d ever seen radiant, shining I’d never felt love like it before The first time you kissed my heart […]

  • Empty

    I start to feel empty again. Looking at your picture help a bit. But I want to see you in person, Love. I miss our laugh, I miss our time together. I miss to cook you dinner… I miss to watch TV together with you.Rest in peace, baby. I love and miss you so much…

  • Nyanyian Rumpun Bambu

    Gemulai bak penariMenarikan tarian jiwaBebas mengayunSesuai irama alamTanpa paksaan…Tanpa perlawanan…Nuansa teduh dan mistisyang tercipta,Membuai jiwa yang dahagaakan kelembutan dan cintaGemerisik suara yang timbulbagaikan suara dari surgaMenyanyikan lagu lagucinta ciptaan dewa Memandangmu membuat jiwa initerasa damaiLaksana dikelilingi dewi dewiYang menari diiringisenandung yang dinyanyikanpara dewa… Warnamu menyejukan mata, jernih tak bernodayang lelah memandang semua kepalsuan yang adaTiada […]

  • So far feel ok. Cried only this morning when Anna suddenly asked whether she can see her Papa Bear. And then Misty and me cried… Sweet Anna, she missed her Papa Bear. She missed you, Baby! She missed you like me, Baby. I miss you so so much. I don’t feel good righ now, I […]